About The Hard Stuff

Yoga has been healing for me, it’s been transformational, it’s been right– but it hasn’t been easy. When I first started practicing I felt incredibly aware of all my physical, mental, emotional shortcomings and how I wasn’t measuring up to the other students in the class. In my first 200 hour training I had deep, painful periods of crying all day and night and telling my teacher I was sure I’d never be “a real yogi”. I’ve been to workshops where the teacher chose to make an example out of me, picking on my scoliosis and using me to demonstrate how not to look in poses. The first time I attempted a meditation retreat I dropped out because the fear and triggers of my loneliness were that intense.

Through this long and winding path I have realized that Yoga doesn’t have to be “something”, and it doesn’t require you to act in a certain way. It only requires you to be authentic to what is arising for you. Because if we see how we are disconnected from ourselves, then we can see how we might come back together, too.

So if you’re fearful of this path, if you feel unworthy or not “enlightened enough” or like an imposter, I promise you I’ve felt that same way. And I celebrate the precipice you’ve arrived at, where real change and healing is possible. However you allow yourself to experience your own journey will be perfect. We’ll teach each other things, we will try and change course and try again. We’ll learn how to be human and divine at the same time.